Happily ever after

Bride walking down the aisle. All white. 
True love. Two to be one with each other in the silent unspoken memories.
Something in her understands the voice of his eyes is deeper than all roses.
He was touched by an angel. Now he just stands there, waiting her to become his forever.
Words are not enough today. The beginning of the rest of their lives.
...And they lived happily ever after...

One day I'll be gone

Another argument. Slamming doors. Tears.
You keep coming and going.
Lousy porn on your screen. It makes me sick.
I'm wondering what I'm doing with someone like you. I deserve something better. One day when you're crawling back home drunk I won't be there. I will be gone. Never looking back.

Alone but not lonely

I'm not lonely. Sometimes I just choose not to be social. Sometimes I just need some time on my own. Time to think and clear my mind.

I'm not alone. Just sitting alone among the others. Nobody cares and I love it. Watching people around, laughing on strangers. Running away from reality, which bites hard sometimes.

I'm alone, but not lonely.

I wish I knew

I wish I knew who I am and what I want. Young girl, in this woman body. I keep running until all the bridges are burned down. One day I need to stop running.

One day I have to find the answer. The answer, hidden somewhere in my heart. I have a key, but I just don't know how to use it. 

I hope I'll learn one day before it's too late and when I realize, that I can't run any longer.

In the middle of nowhere

In the middle of nowhere. Breathing something called air. I hear no traffic. The only thing I can hear is silence. 

I feel uncomfortable. I get restless and anxious. I don't like the feeling of staying still. The nature is not my thing.
I really need to get back in the city. Back to the society. I'll get the peace of mind when I hear people and the traffic in the backround. I belong there.
I can finally breath again.

Soaked in luxury

I close my eyes. I take a deep breath and step into my closet. My heaven, my passion.

Just watching around: Jewelries, purses, handbags, shoes and dresses...

So many beautyful things in one room and the best thing is that they're all mine.

Soaked in luxury...

I simply love my pink life. 

Greatest show ever

Dream as you'll live forever. Live as you'll die today.
You only have one life, don't let it get waisted. I can't live my life by saving money for the days I'll get retired.
What if I'm dead by then? Then I'll die without having never lived my life and that would be a shame.

No regrets.

Open your arms and take life as a gift. Life is the greatest show on earth and you only have one ticket.

Use it before it's too late.

First spring day

Melting snow, blooming flowers, coffee shops carring tables outside, happy people around me. The whole tired city waking up like Snow White of her sleep. There's only one word to describe it: Spring.

Left behind

It's always easier to leave than to be left behind and that's a fact we can't change. 
We always hear people say that time heals the scars and it's true, even though you can't imagine it could be possible.
Love hurts, but there will always be sunshine after the storm. The sun breaks throw the clouds and life smiles back to you again.

Be my Valentine

It's the 14.th of february and it means only one thing: Valentine's day. Men trying to impress their wives and girlfriends by buying flowers, chocolate and going out for a dinner. 
The day of the year when Cupid with his bow and arrow is spreading love all over the world. Blushing cheeks, kisses and holding hands. Love is in the air...
Be my Valentine.

So fucking special

Haters don't hate you. They hate themselves 'cause you're a reflection what they want to be. Yes, I know I have over 200 pair of shoes, designer bags and I get into exclusive places and get what I want. I would never go into zoo wearing crocs and a windbreaker, I don't even have one. I would never take a charter vacation to a place where everybody goes to, I'd rather take around the world. I have always done things upside down and been different. I love my lifestyle, shopping, coffee drinking, travelling and being social. It's not an attitude, it's the way I am. Sometimes I try to be normal, but it's boring and I get back to being me.                                           

Lonely, lovely christmas

I've never been best friends with christmas. It doesn't mean anything to me, just another day among the others. My family knows it, and they respect my wish to stay home by myself.
People who doesn't know me thinks it's a pity to stay alone and I always get invited to celebrate christmas them, but I always turn them down 'cause I've chosen it myself.

I love being at home, watching tv, painting and doing things I usually do. I like to go to empty gym or take a walk on empty streets. It's so peaceful.

It's not sad for me, it's not a pity for me. It's just my way to get over it... 

Fashion slave

There's usually three types of people when it comes to fashion: Those who are true fashionistas. People who knows the next trend before it gets on the streets. Then there are those who follows what's in at the moment looking absolutely like everyone else following what a fashion magazine tells them to wear. Then there are those who doesn't care a shit what they're wearing as long it's practical or cheap. 

I belong to the first group and people who know me don't even ask. They know they'll be wearing the same in 6 months. Some people looks at me like I'm from another planet when they think the clothes they're wearing are the highest fashion. But by then I'm already a half a year ahead showing the next seasons trends and colors. They just doesn't know it yet.

I don't judge. People can wear whatever they want to wear. But I do care. It is my passion to carry the latest pieces of art. I absolutely love fashion and I'm a slave of it.

Art is not a thing. It's a way.





 Once again when I feel sad, I find my paintings and use my imagination.

 All the colors of the rainbow, put together, giving me smile on my face.

 I might not be the next Picasso or Van Goh, but I couldn't care a   less what other people say. I do this for myself, not for anybody else.

 It's a way to relax, a way to express myself.

 Art is not a thing. It's a way...



In love

Smile on my face. Blush on my cheeks. Butterflies in my stomach. I feel like a teenager again.
Not one single thing I can't take. Today I can beat the whole world. I feel like the king of the world.
I'm in love.

We only have one planet.

One world. One ocean. It's our world and we supposed to protect it.

Dead fishes, cans and water bottles on the beach. What's happening? Why nobody cares?

I wanna surf in the clean ocean. I want to drink pure water.

Save the ocean. Save the planet.

Stupid girl

I don't know myself anymore. I'm lost, somewhere in between. Thoughts flying around making completely chaos inside my head. No sense at all.
I'm so sorry, that I need to do it to find out,  that it's not better at all. I need to fall deep down to realize, that all I ever wanted I already had in my hands. I just didn't realize to appriciate it.

One day I'll wake up with regrets, drowning myself in my own misery. I should have known better. I've lost it all for good, no matter how sorry I am.

Stupid girl.

My way or highway

You are a part of my life but you aren't. I don't know how  it all ended this way and how long it all will continue but right now it feels fine.

Yes, I have moments when I need you more than ever, but that's the price I pay for getting it all to spin aroud the way I will.
I might be selfish when I have the attitude of doing things on my way or hightway. Well, as long it's fine with you I actually don't care.

Let's just enjoy our lives and get the best out of it.

The day world stood still

The day you stepped into my life was the day the world stood still. I was blown away. But as I also knew that I would lose you for good in 24 hours 'cause I was leaving. Leaving far away, back to my normal life.
Life is so unfair sometimes. That sophisticated pain to love someone who's so unattainable. 

Sometimes you should look back

There you went never looking back. Back to your boring life.
I know you had to, but I also know,that I was the best that could ever happen to you.
I can do what she does but so much better. 

I thought you were more like me, playing with fire, enjoying life.
You played and you got burned. You gave up.

I'm still here. Still enjoying every moment of my life, even if it's with or without you.

You couldn't handle me, I was too wild. I won't change and you know it. You'll regret one day, and then I won't be there.