Stupid girl

I don't know myself anymore. I'm lost, somewhere in between. Thoughts flying around making completely chaos inside my head. No sense at all.
I'm so sorry, that I need to do it to find out,  that it's not better at all. I need to fall deep down to realize, that all I ever wanted I already had in my hands. I just didn't realize to appriciate it.

One day I'll wake up with regrets, drowning myself in my own misery. I should have known better. I've lost it all for good, no matter how sorry I am.

Stupid girl.