You are a part of my life but you aren't. I don't know how it all ended this way and how long it all will continue but right now it feels fine.
Yes, I have moments when I need you more than ever, but that's the price I pay for getting it all to spin aroud the way I will.
I might be selfish when I have the attitude of doing things on my way or hightway. Well, as long it's fine with you I actually don't care.
Let's just enjoy our lives and get the best out of it.
The day you stepped into my life was the day the world stood still. I was blown away. But as I also knew that I would lose you for good in 24 hours 'cause I was leaving. Leaving far away, back to my normal life.
Life is so unfair sometimes. That sophisticated pain to love someone who's so unattainable.
There you went never looking back. Back to your boring life.
I know you had to, but I also know,that I was the best that could ever happen to you.
I can do what she does but so much better.
I thought you were more like me, playing with fire, enjoying life.
You played and you got burned. You gave up.
I'm still here. Still enjoying every moment of my life, even if it's with or without you.
You couldn't handle me, I was too wild. I won't change and you know it. You'll regret one day, and then I won't be there.
Silent night. The only thing I can hear is my own breath. Just me. Who am I? I don't know the answer yet. Maybe I'll find it out one day. Let's just enjoy the beauty of the moment.
I can't sleep. So many memories. It all keeps coming back. Nightmare. Insomnia.
This was the last time I keep telling myself over and over again. I'm a shoppaholic and I know it, but also know, that if I keep living this way, it'll hit me one day. I'm not talking about just few dollars, I'm talking of thousands of dollars I keep throwing out when I just buy things without a special purpose.
My life standard is high and I can't see any reason not having it if I just use a little bit less every month. I've tried to write down what I buy, but in some stage I forget it and it all just runs out of my hands.
I'm also a truly fashionista and it doesn't make it any easier. We all know how much designer clothes and accessories costs.
Well, the first time must be the most difficult, but if I keep asking myself if I really need it, I'm sure the answer will be no.
Nothing else to do than try my best and learn some more self control.
This time of the year, when the Scandinavia is on it's coldest and darkest, nothing's better than a vacation. I can live throw january by knowing I'll be in Hawaii in one month. Just to get away for a few weeks, sucking all the energy of the sun.
No stress when you just lay there, in the middle of Pacific Ocean, on that tropical paradise island. Taking out for a surf in big waves, snorkeling in turquoise water, diving and just enjoying that timeless life.
When I'll get home, I can live throw march with my memories, until the spring begins and we can also see the sun in here.
Not that I don't like winter. I love a real winter as well. Nothing is better than just snowboarding and skiing all day long. To come home, sitting next to a fireplace, drinking hot chocolate.
But the winter is long and I really need my sun fix and I'm gonna get it for my own wellness. Can't wait to get there soon...
How can you act like and it never happened and that we were nothing?
How can you treat me like a stranger after what we've been throw?
You can't deny it never happened. I know you had feelings for me even though you screwed me over.
But now I'm finally ready to let you go and accept that you're just somebody that I used to know...
..Have a good life, stranger.
