Just me

I'd rather be hated for who I am than be loved for who I am not. It sounds pretty simple, but speaking only for myself I unfortunally don't believe I can live up for that statement. In my world it's something that isn't true. Everything I've ever been throw wouldn't happen if I only would have been myself. Well, I actually am myself and I know what I stand for, but I have no idea what I am 'cause I'm changing after circumstances. I don't belong in any certain category 'cause I'm like a chameleon. Don't know if it's a good thing or not, but I can't change the way I am. 

Electronic world

We don't have to go back more than 20 years and people were living without mobile phones and laptops. People then were not more unhappy or more unsocial than today. But everybody knows the feeling when you forget your phone at home: It's like you're naked, 'cause that phone is not only your phone. It's your calender, your social network, your news. It's all you need. 

Todays children are born in this electronic world. They can't even imagine life without computer, Playstation, X-box, Iphone, Ipad and all that everydays stuff. People are so addicted to their phones that it's almost scary. Everything has become more unsocial but still more social. By this I mean chatting and updating status in Facebook or Twitter not forgetting text messaging, where you actually chat and talk, without talking someone in person. Maybe it's a good thing but I personally would like to avoid hearing of somebodys sickness when I'm sitting in a subway. Some conversations would be better to leave at home instead of a public place.

I was sitting in a coffee shop the other day and just watching people around me. There was not a one single person who didn't have a mobile or a laptop on the table. That makes me to wonder what would happen if all that electronic wouldn't be working one day...

Anything for you

Why you look so sad? 
Don't be afraid 'cause I'll protect you from everything.
I will fight away all your fears, whatever it takes.
There won't be such a thing in this world that cannot be beaten. 
I promise you that as long as you trust me, you'll never end up being alone.

Neverending dream

I'm sliding down on the bridge of the rainbow, hoping to find a treasure where-ever it ends. 
All the stars and the moon, smiling down at me. 


The sun coloring my hair, rain drops crying me a river. Silence. 
I just wanna stay here forever. In this beautiful neverending dream. 

Unfaithful

I don't know if anyone recognizes that awkward moment when you stand there right next to him like a stranger but you both know he's been all over you so many times. You both live separate lives in completely different level, in completely different ways. You don't have anything in common but that sexual tension, which drives you both crazy.

'There's no future for you and him and you both are aware of it, but you're still seeing each other even though it's not right. How can it be possible? There has to be some kind of feelings between you two to make it happen. I just don't get it because it seems that you have a perfect life. I can't help wondering why me, because I know you can have anyone you want because of who you are. I don't know if you like playing with fire but just to mention: The most people are ending up getting burned. 

I don't care 'cause I'm just another woman...

15 minutes of fame

What's wrong with the world today? When you turn on the tv, you cannot avoid seeing some kind of reality program. Young and beautiful people are waiting in the line to get their 15 minutes of fame in the tv. There are no limits what they wouldn't do to get there. Drinking, fighting and having sex on open screen. It's nothing but finding even more extreme things to beat the old shows. 
Many of those people doesn't even get enough after one season. When coming home they'll try to become singers, actors, hosts or whatever, but unfortunatelly none of them will be remembered in few years. Those medie hookers will maybe be remembered the first year after when being in scandale headlines, but after that they're all forgotten. They have difficulties to get jobs because of that humiliation on tv. 
How can it be so important that they are willing to ruin their whole future for it. How can 15 minutes of fame mean so much for someone? Maybe they haven't get enough attention at home when they have to tell the whole nation that: "Look at me, I'm right here..." 
The only one word I can find to describe my thoughts is: Apathetic.

Greatest drug on earth

Do you know the day you feel there's nothing that can bring you down? That incredible feeling like you own the whole world. Everything around you looks beautiful, everything sounds great. You are feeling so high, like being on the greatest drug on earth. Well maybe it is, because when I think about you, I can feel my face chancing the color into red, the color of love...