Friday, July 15, 2011

Sometimes everything is wrong

Be my world, be my friend. Walk with me to the end...
I'm just having one of the days when everything is wrong.  I feel like I'm the only person in the world as I hear as I hear angels cry above this silent city.
Loneliness is taking over and it's the worst if you're not uncomfortable with yourself. I'm one of those who's afraid of my own company.That's because then I have to be me, there's no role to play to hide in. Nothing but those empty blue eyes, starring  back from the mirror, without life, without happiness.

How can I feel so uncomfortable with myself? I'm actually scared to be me. I can perform in front of thousands of people, all by myself, standing in the spotlight, but this is much worse. How I can learn to accept myself? I'm always openminded and encouraging others to be themselves, no matter what. But as soon as I'm standing here all by myself, I'm nothing. I'm not perfect. I'm nobody, and that's what I'm afraid to be...